i haven't met some friends for years . i miss them . for now i have some trouble in my life . sometimes i feel very confusing. but everying still ok with me . i saw their space . i realize everyone has their own trouble and happiness . this is real life. i talked to a friend couple of days before. she has a good boyfriend who is not rich but ok. she lives with him . their apartment is nice . but she told me she doesnt' love him. she lives with him might just because he loves her and can give her better life.

     A friend of mine who is very nice . she told me she wants introduce her cousin to me . then we can become gf and bf if we like . and i could have better life . because i will become local people. that's traditional way to get married in China. i think she is very nice ,she trust me and like me . i don't know if it can work to me . i'm not that type of girl i guess . i like more free, and follow my heart. but for now , everytime i followed my heart that was wrong . wrong time or wrong person.

    i had loved a guy when i was 18years old , he never know. for now he has been married for 3years . i never thought he will get marreid such early .he told me because he thought it was right time fo him.

    for me , i still want give myself a chance . i told my ex that i want get married before him. then he will know he lost such wonderful gf like me . he tole me that's not the good reason for get married . well , he is right . so i must trust myself , i'm still young and have many chance in my life .i'll follow my heart forever.do somthing i like and try to be happy everyday !

   i changed my job. but i don't really like it. so i just transfer department.and i'll try to like it. in fact i 'm confuseing .i hope i could do something i really like . but what can i do . i'm just a little unwell i guess. i know everyone has to work . not everyone enjoy doing their job. i'm the one of them .and the one of the people. whatever everything will getting better. just do it.