i had an interview today . it's a movie company about publish movies. i like this kind of job. i love movies. i might can go other coutry for business trip later. that will be awesome . but the thing is i got another phone call this afternoon. it was another company . that's big company . i might can earn much more money here. so it's kind of hard for me . i called some friends to help me make a good decision. work for money or work for something i really like? i am confused .

   no money no happy . but i might can change my life if i take the job .i love movie . i hope i can write story and make it become movie someday.that's my dream right? give up my dream for money? haha if i think this way , things will become easy .

   the movie <Gattca> told me never give up your dream. never think of back if u have made decision. just go ahead because the  opposite the coast is  closer when you already swam half. so swim towards the opposite coast rather than go back。
 
 he left his family because they think he is something he should be. but he wants be something he wants to be.so when i want to be somebody why i can't to be? i didn't start swim . but i want to be the opposite side. sometime when you can't see something that doesnt' mean there is no something . just like Vinson did. he breathe out smoke to the glass , you might can't see the wine . but there is the wine under the smoke.i might can't see something in my future because . that doesn't mean no something in my future. i have to try for good or bad.

    viking told me this is interesting movie. when i finished this movie. i thought this is more than interesting. 两个注定就要有完全不样的生活，从出生前就开始。但是一次意外又将两个人的命运紧紧相连。电影讲的是一个关于未来的故事。那时候科技已经高度发达，大多数人们不再选择自然收孕。而是让科技来选择最优的生命，没有任何疾病的遗传基因。这样有些人生来就有好的命运，而有些自然受孕的人则受到各种歧视。因为只要一点唾液，一点血，一根头发，在一秒钟里，人们就会知道你合格不合格。所谓不合格既你有着遗传病的基因。你可能近视，可能没有太多体力，左撇子，寿命可能也不长。所以男主人公从小就是这样在歧视中长大，不同于弟弟。因为他是自然受孕而成。正是因为这样他希望他有一天可以离开这个地球。去其他星球，他不认为自己属于这里。但是那听起来几乎是不可能的，要是想见卫星升空，唯一办法就是去gattca做清洁工。就是去宇航局做个扫地的。这样你可以看，但别梦想做宇航员了。因为他们绝不会花大把的钱训练你，那样太不值了。男主人公文森的寿命只要一测便知可能只活到30.2岁。即使背下所以有航空课程的知识，每天做身体锻炼也是没用的。因为有太多人不用这样，他生来智商就高的出奇，身体撞得如牛，视力都是2.0，只要不出意外，他可以永远活下去。那为什么要选你呢？除非？是的杰隆就是后者。除非他出了意外，下肢残疾。再后把基因租给文森。于是文森另一个名字就是杰隆，而杰隆就用了自己中间的名字尤金。

   来本是一个简单的故事。说事话没有太多的意外。但是却感人致深。文森不得不每天做同一件事，拼命擦身体和头发好不让一点身体的皮屑掉下来，然后带上杰隆的尿液以防检查。杰隆就每天准备这样那样的样本供文森使用。杰隆不太相信文森可能做到，因为即使他那样的完美基因。也得到的只是银牌。可是生活有了翻天腹地的变化，文森成了一名首席宇航员。他的梦想马上就要成为现实。可是这时候宇航局发生了一起谋杀。为了调查起谋杀，调查局开始大量采集现场的DNA样本。文森却这时不小心掉了一根睫毛。于是文森不得不每天面临威胁，是放弃还是继续。

  梦在咫尺，杰隆不允许文森回头。因为此时，文森的梦想也成了杰隆的。面前困难无想象，每天都有不同的检查身体。这看似平常，但每一次文森都可能使他与梦想擦肩而过。

 我无法想象电影的结局，我有时在想。是完美的还是凄美的。杰隆在最关键的时候保护了文森。他的双腿是动不了的，但是他一定要爬上楼梯。按动门禁的开关，让调查局的人进门。要最后做回一次自己。他做到了，为了文森的梦，也为了他自己梦。他对文森说，我是把身体租给了你，但是你却让我分享了你的梦想。

 指正的杀人犯已经找到了，不所为的瑕疵人。也不是大家怀疑的文森。而是局中的高官要人，他为了不让死者阻止本次升空行动。而杀了他。可是他不是瑕疵人，他的基因里没有一点暴力倾向。

 以为事情就么过去。但是文森不得不面对先前的调查员安东。安东这个名字要不是因为自己是瑕疵人，可能就是自己的名字了。但是父亲认为自己名字不可以让一个有瑕疵的孩子继承。于是他的弟弟安东就出世了。安东不是自然收孕，所以事事都比文森强。两个人经常背着父母玩的游戏就是在海中游泳。看谁游的最远，谁先回头谁就输了。文森自然没有赢过。

  这一次，两人又回来海边。安东不相信哥哥可以做到这一些。他一直没有拆穿哥哥，但是他不相信他可以做到这一切。两人最后比赛一次。这次文森赢了。他也救了安东。他说我可以做到，是因为我从来不保留回头的体力。对岸不是比回去更近一点吗。

  文森回到家中。杰隆却准备好了很多的样品，他说这些文森可以用一辈子。杰隆说他要去远行。文森说可能已经不需要。但是杰隆说，什么时侯想做一下杰隆，就做一下。他交给文森一张卡片说，升空之前不要打开。

  这一天来到。但是文森没有带上杰隆的尿液。这一次他要做回自己。他不知道杰隆也要实现自己梦想。那枚银牌要和自己起经过烈火的考验而变成金的。检查官没有让文森退出，他一直说着他儿子的故事。他说他希望他的儿子也和文森一样优秀，说着说着，就把不合格的显示通过按钮变成了合格。还说小便不要用左手，细节也很重要。原来他早就知道这一切。

  文森终于升空了。他打开卡片，杰隆留下的是一缕头发。原来当你认为你不属于这里而且马上就要离开时才发现有时候，有些事是这么值得留恋。

  我本来想写很多自己的想法，但是写着写着就写出了整个故事。我明白这个电影本身就是不可解释的，因为太容易被解释了。我的感受不用说，相信每个看完这个电影人都会明白。

   

  

   when i decided left i never thought i'll lost so many things . everything changed but only in one month. so if someone how many things can be changed in 30days. i'll tell everything. sometime changed is good . you can have other chance to make your better life. you will start over from frist. for me i don't know if that was good . the last month was my worst month i never ever had. but the best thing is i was with my family . i wish i could come back to be with them . but could i? i couldn't . my life is here or somewhere esle . that's my life.

   i met one guy in subway . we know each other .but we both tried to not talked to each other. the night of the day i sent message to him. i told him i was sorry for i saw him but i didn't talk to him. he told he saw me too. but he really didn't think it was me or he would say something. our story was too old and i almost forget . but the world is big but sometimes when you really think it's big . suddenly it become small. i live guomao area he lives wudaokou area. i haven't been there for long long time. only once since i moved this area then we met . i found maybe we won't be friends anymore. but i don't have to pretend to don't know him. i want be myself the girl who i like. if i wanna be happy then i have to forgive something or someone and forget something bad which did happened.

   so i have to forgive myself . if i really miss something or someone . sometimes i will think if i can change something already happened what should i do . i think i will stay in beijing. then nothing happen or the things can be control. in fact even i stay that wouldn't change anything. because i won't feel the way that i'm feeling . i will never change something already happened. but maybe i can make up something . i believed destiny .but i think because i was too lazy . i will change my destiny. i will give up something i shouldn't have . FORGIVE ME

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